The thread for flipping shits (and tables)

my replacement ram for my computer finally came in today but i won't be abelt to get to it until tomorrow because i forgot the mail key and my guardian won't get back with it until tomorrow after noon.

this sucks. i've had to deal with 6gb ram for months now

I'm so tired I am in physical pain. I keep getting revisions on this same scene because they keep messing up the notes and I'm dying They're gonna come to my desk to check up on me and I'm just a corpse with a tablet pen still clenched in my cold, dead hand.

have a fever

FUCK DROPBOX

FUCK DROPBOX

I thought you knew they were killing off public folders ahead of time?

I did, but I figured if I ignored it entirely it would go away :D

so uh

apparently since i didn't do so hot last semester i have to pay the school $180 before i can sign up for classes for the next semester.

which is starting next week.

this is the last class i have to take before i graduate.

fuuuuuuuuuck me.

Harry Potter Puppet pals is over a DECADE OLD NOW.

I am too old.

Harry Potter Puppet pals is over a DECADE OLD NOW.

?!!?

To be fair, Neil C. got a really early start on Internet entertainment. He was like 14 or thereabouts when he uploaded Hyakugojyuuichi, making more or less everyone else too old, for the rest of time. That video is now older than he was.

For my part, I was fumbling around in Flash a few times in those years but never came up with much to show for it. Although it might be nice if I did, there are many things that did make it online that I am somewhat relieved have been scrubbed thanks to Internet entropy. I don’t put too much stock into that whole “it lives forever on the Internet” thing. You have to be fairly visible, or attract a particular kind of person with an axe to grind, or post in places with unusually long-lived archival for that to be a relevant factor.

And yet I have regrets. One of them being that perhaps I could have benefitted from putting up more of that cringeworthy material, if my head had been in the right place instead of looking for ego strokes.

im doing that thing again

the one where its SPECIFICALLY this community that has me feeling insecure and low-self-esteem-y, as if i were trying to prove something. i thought it was just me, but no its this whole being online or anonymous or whatever thing that has me desperate for validation.

i remember there was this thing a while back where i was feeling depressed and shitty and i ended up in a mental hospital because other people online told me i have depression and i believed them but GUESS WHAT I DONT HAVE IT.

i feel pretty content with my life irl, its just that online stuff has me feeling weird. like, nobody loves me, im annoying, or whatever. because people dont talk about me often enough? its weird yo!

i kind of want to ask to be loved. i want people to tell me that no im not being annoying or shitty. because i cant read people from text only and maybe everyone secretly hates me. is that weird?

stuff is weighing heavily on me and being nonbinary sucks

im doing that thing again

...

I think that's kinda just one of the problems with online stuff in general. esp if you haven't been around as long or don't post as often, it can look like everybody there is best friends for years while you're just kinda sitting there. I think it's just cause there's no direct face to face interaction, so even if you are being typed to directly, your brain doesn't seem to count it as part of your Demanded Monthly Social Quota. The best solution is really just to take a break for a little while, esp if you're dealin with real life stuff, and then come back once you've got your shit more sorted out.

gatr i just want you to know i love seeing stuff you post like when you post on this forum you're like one of the people who when i see you I'm like, hey what a cool guy

hhhhhhh god i've been making a lot of dumb mistakes at work the past week and i can't stop thinking about it
partly because half of them had simpler or faster solutions, partly because the other half didn't, and i feel like i objectively shouldn't have this job anymore and it's ridiculous that i still do

(but in truth it's probably not actually that bad yet.)

Went from energetic and on top of shit and socially satisfied and confident in the morning, to shutting down over an evening, accomplishing nothing, skipping dinner and fucking up my sleep schedule for zero gain

fuck fcokdjdvkok i hate exams

Today? Law!

BAILMENT IS A SHITTY WORD

I've been working on the same scene for 3 weeks and there's still so much to do. They keep changing their minds and are like 'oh just tweak this' but 'tweaking this' often requires me to completely redo something

Hnnnnnnnnnnnngnnnnnnnnggggg

My iphone cable broke and its a public holiday so i can't get a new one? Also i burned a huge pot of soup (at least 3 meals for me and ren T_T ) so the whole house smells like burnt lentils and when i went to make myself a cup of coffee to fill the gap until dinner gets recooked i discovered that the milk was off.

I give up on today

Someone just came into my server saying they were going to diddle a minor and I wanted to die so bad

Not sure if they were serious or just trolling but I still hate it

Also this so happens to come after a couple weeks of getting rid of the 'verified' system on my server, so had I just kept that up a while longer I could have avoided it

Kill me

I am having a bad day.

ive been fucking goddamn exhausted all shitfucking day with a fucking near migraine and eyeache and a fucking cold but as soon as i get into bed planning to go to sleep early im suddenly wide fucking awake and full of fucking energy and no headachhe and now its one in the morning and tomorrows gonna be even fucking worse because my body cant even feel shitty the one goddamn time its fucking supposed to.

I can feel myself slipping into a state of heavy depression and i don't know how to stop it? I feel awful and i want to be dead

I haven't left bed for over 24 hours and i have a massive headache and ren cooked meat and didn't clean up so the whole house smells awful and i hate it

I think staring at screens all day with contacts in is fucking with my vision a bit but I have no idea where I put my glasses. I have a vague memory of putting them in a box but my apartment is literally 90% boxes right now

job is getting quickly less good
due to various different circumstances, i keep getting let out later and later after my shift, so when i finally get to go home, i get to look forward to dad screaming at me for making him wait.
also he keeps asking me to find a new job, and yesterday he brought me a job app from a smoothie place down the street and demanded i fill it out. this is despite him saying he totally understands that leaving a job after around two months doesn't look good on a resume.

also for some reason i have to work most of next week and it's all 6 AM shifts. why