The thread for flipping shits (and tables)

*Sings the "I hate rendering" song at full volume while beating head against the table

*Sings the "I hate rendering" song at full volume while beating head against the table

oh what a coincidence guess what i'm doing RIGHT NOW FOR THE LAST HALF HOUR

I feel your pain. A pox on slow computers and glitchy video-editing programs.

*vibrates dejectedly* 5 classes today, 1 done

4 done

it's 27 degrees and humidity's at 70%, Mitch called me about schedules on my lunch break so I didn't have a chance to go talk to a colleague about a thing I'd help 'em out with

The humidity and the Pulse nightclub shooting are collaborating to make me feel dead and despairing

One class to go

you can do it, i am cheering for you

Oh boy I just love when random people come in here just to use the projector to play movies as loud as possible

What a fun all nighter this is gonna be

It's done

good thing I don't have to do this again, ever, until next Monday at least

I get really bad allergies this time of year, which sucks because up until a few years ago I never got allergies at all. At the moment my nose is running so rapidly that it might as well be bleeding, the whole inside of my face is itchy and painful, and my throat feels like I've swallowed a bowl full of miniwheats without chewing them first.

The more inflamed my nose gets, the more it runs. But the more I blow my nose, the worse the inflammation gets.

At least my eyes aren't itching, yet.

i just feel really sad and crowded and just disassociate when im in this house and i don't know how I'm gonna do this for 3 months

I have this love/hate thing goin' on with motion blur right now.
on one hand, it hides my mistakes, on the other, it hides my fine details perfectionist me insisted on refining

I still have 3,327 words to go.

Kill me.

KILL ME.

Im really struggling with basic concepts like 'existing' today

wow gee i'd love to get out of this house but i need to get a job first?? wow it'd be cool if being pressured to get a job wasn't literally one of the reasons i want to get away from this place

*Inaudible screaming*
I don't want to do any of the ten billion things I need done TODAY before it's too late

wow gee i'd love to get out of this house but i need to get a job first?? wow it'd be cool if being pressured to get a job wasn't literally one of the reasons i want to get away from this place

This.
I know this feeling. I know it well.

Time for Solekii's college grad all-nighter 2.0

I need to get my entire reel re-rendered and comped before work tomorrow

hoo boy

I feel like im on the verge of some sort of psychotic break one minute and then fine (if a little grumpy) the next

Im not coping

aaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I AM NOT OKAY

I just slept for 17 hours

time to go work. AGAIN

This wasn't an appropriate place for this

I've put off making calls to my old community college and university to get my accounts back up and running so that i can get my transcripts so that i can finish my application for new university

and there's a lot of pressure to get me to hurry up with it and it's honestly making me do it slower, i think...

I feel like im on the verge of some sort of psychotic break one minute and then fine (if a little grumpy) the next

Im not coping

Update: i have a doctors appointment tomorrow. I feel disconnected from teality and i feel like theres about a 70% chance of hospital

FUUUUUUUUUCK YOU FOUCAULT AND YOUR FUCKING POWER DYNAMICS AND YOUR FUCKING INSTITUTIONS AND FUCK YOU HEBDIGE AND YOUR FUCKING SUBCULTURAL THEORY AND FUCK YOU CAMPBELL FOR WRITING LITERALLY THE SAME ARTICLE OVER AND OVER AGAIN ABOUT DIFFERENT PLACES 'OH LOOK IN THIS STATE PEOPLE DID THE EXACT SAME THINGS IN THAT STATE I GUESS THAT SAYS THAT PEOPLE DON'T LIKE THESE THINGS AND WANT TO BAN THEM' WELL NO SHIT IT'S ABOUT A UNBALANCED POWER RELATIONSHIP AND THE ADDRESSING OF THREATENING ASPECTS TO A FUCKING UNSTABLE SOCIETY THAT YOU WON'T ADMIT EXISTED AND FUCK YOU LACAN JUST ON PRINCIPLE, YOU POSTMODERNIST FUCK

Gotta love days like this when I'm low-key disappointing a range of people, through independent and mostly-avoidable fuckings-up on my part

Doing worse today

I regret having checked how the referendum was going upon waking up in the middle of the night.

Fucking hell.

(...I wonder how many generations ago the O' fell off my surname...)