The thread for flipping shits (and tables)

Missed a phone interview today because I forgot to account for timezones.

Currently filled with a mixture of embarrassment shame and self-loathing for such a stupid fuckup.

Only recourse now is to find a hornet's nest and shove my head in it.

Missed a phone interview today because I forgot to account for timezones.

Currently filled with a mixture of embarrassment shame and self-loathing for such a stupid fuckup.

Only recourse now is to find a hornet's nest and shove my head in it.

That's okay, we all forget things sometimes, there are so many things to keep track of and sometimes we can't handle them all.
I completely forgot about an appointment I had with my therapist (which was going to be for free) and I felt really awful about it. But after curling up in a ball and crying I decided to call her up, apologize and promise it won't happen again. So my point is, yeah, take your time to feel bad about it, but remember it's not the end of the world after that!

Hope that helps, but then again I’m still nobody and also not who I thought I was in the first place so what do I really know eh.

Same.

I hate pretending to be offline cus it makes me feel like i already lost, but there's this one person who is heckin me up n' im not in the mood to deal with that

Im so glad that discord has the "invisible" option but im so mad bout the fact that i gotta use it

Life is fucking unfair and I hate it. I'm tired.

The friend I mentioned who is in very serious legal trouble was about to have his last trial during these months but it was pushed until MAY, six fucking months, just because they feel like it.

that suck infared!! i'm sorry about that hopefully it get resolves soon though

own rant abt life in spoilers v

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i really don't want to exist right now
my grades are dropping and i've been cramming on all my projects i haven't finished. what's worse to me is that i literally can't work on my PE project because a.) computer's dumb b.) it's a group work c.) i'm the only one who can do it d.) why does no one else in our group have a computer [or is willing to work with me!!!]
i've always been terrified about losing my scholarship and now that i'm almost senior high i can't afforad to risk anything and i hate that i have a scholarship as thankful as i am for it because trying is getting so tiring. i don't want to try and i want this to end it's making life so much less fun
i really wish i didn't feel so numb 24/7 either, i can't even stress myself out enough to do it and as much as i hate stress i hate feeling numb so so so much and i can't even let it out physically
my mom's been putting off getting me a therapist and i hate it because i know how bad my depression's[???] been affecting my will and ability to do schoolwork. she says i can get out of it on my own but to be honest it's been too long and i'd rather get some help sooner rather than later. i don't want this to be a thing i have to look forward to when i'm 18

That rough. Don’t let the bozos grind you down.

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And from the sound of it, you’re dealing with a fleet of clown cars. In truth, sounds like somewhere I was at when I was in high school (one key difference—didn’t care for the therapy. I was forced into it, and that makes everything worse).

I would say, definitely don’t try to do everything on your own. There are some things—big and important ones—that ultimately require you to take complete personal responsibility for things to change; these things don’t actually take that much effort or time, because the payoffs are tremendous anyway. And a lot of people (who may or may not be well adjusted themselves) can see only that in others. They can’t see whatever it is that torments you. They may not even be trusting you with the chance to fulfill said responsibilities. Frankly, a lot of older people honestly don’t realize/remember what a typical workload is like in school today (at least in America). That’s where they’re at; it’s pure bozo-ism, try to let it slide off because they can’t tell you to think things you need to have thought of yourself.

But contrary to my own statement, I’ll tell you what to think, and you can decide whether you agree. How’s that?

In the past month, I read a couple of really good books.

One is Getting Things Done by Dave Allen. If I had known the techniques in it, I think my schoolwork would have gone a lot more smoothly. Thing is, the first edition came out when I was in 8th grade and was mostly geared towards business; all the systems the schools tried to get me to use didn’t work the same way (color code your classes, they said, write it in your calendar, they said). Anyway, the crux of it is making sure you write down all the stuff you’re supposed to do and what you’re supposed to do about it; the rest is sorting it out, making sure you know where all of it is and what to do about it when it needs to be done. Ultimately, that kind of system also helps you understand what you’re okay with not doing, because it just won’t be at the back of your mind. The is one of the best I’ve ever read; but you can get the gist of it online since you’re probably strapped for time and cash (but who isn’t?).

The other one is Never Split the Difference by Chris Voss. It is a much lighter read, the condensed version is this 1hr Google Talk with the author. While it’s technically about negotiation, the truth is that if we don’t really know how to negotiate, we don’t form equitable, thought-out agreements. Then we don’t understand why we got screwed so bad, or why someone who seemed so ready to help us out the other day is suddenly very angry with us (it’s hardly an excuse, but they might be somewhat justified!).

Also in the past couple of years, I came across something that more and more self-help authors are including in their books these days. The exercise boils down to something like this: pick a realistic but best-possible life situation you can imagine, somewhere from 6 months to 5 years out (most people who aren’t 20 yet should rather try out the lower end of that), and start putting together a step-by-step plan for how you get there in that timeframe. Especially important to hash out is the first step. The first step will probably be something physical, very easy to do, and that’s the key, because you know it’s easy so you’ll probably do it.

The reason I’m talking about productivity here is that most people are starved for wins. Racking up real achievements, and framing them in a way that makes them feel like real achievements, is how you get those wins. It is not a “cure” for depression per se (if that is what it is). But you might find it necessary to work your way towards the help you need. I found that this alone is good enough for me.

And never forget: some bozos promise they’ll just go away if you do nothing. They haven’t already. They won’t.

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Hmmmmm! Turns out if I experience unpleasant smells+noises+tactile senses simultaneously I have an anxiety attack and want to claw my arm off!

Hmmmmm! Turns out if I experience unpleasant smells+noises+tactile senses simultaneously I have an anxiety attack and want to claw my arm off!

:/ Wonderful!

Im rly sorry schaz

I'm very sad and lonely and I have no energy to do anything.

Yesterday i had a fun time wrking with some anarchists on a cool feed the homeless kinda deal but today i got a letter from some vampires asking for money for a thing i didnt steal. So exhausted and angry. Feels like every time i try and help mistakes come up and make me wanna die.

i'm sick, and have a huge test sunday. i hate you, thymus

Gives everyone on this thread a hug. I hope u all get thru ur sads n mads

You know what's a major pet peeve of mine? When people discriminate on giving me "controversial info" due to age or behaviour. While I'm understanding of some situations where this info won't affect me, its a whole 'nother ball game when not knowing this info will put me in a situation that will be hard to exit, like a toxic friendship.

Telling me "this person did very bad things" isnt enough of a description. Dont say "it really isnt something you should hear" won't give me a clear picture on why i should avoid someone. if what a person did was bad enough where you seemingly cant even tell me what it is, than i should have the right to know.

if they discriminate against your perceived emotional maturity when giving info, they're probably not the people you should ask anyway.

Its a lil difficult to do that when only a few know the info first hand, but i get what youre saying. I really do appreciate friends who warn and tell me straight up without prompting em on my part. I try to get advice and direct my questions to them because I trust them. Its not that big pet peeve, but it does bother me alot when some people and friends make it very hard for me to gain info because "pwecious innocence uwu". It's insulting.

That sounds super frustrating tbh. Real sorry you gotta go thru that.

im pretty sure one of my students has legit mental disorders and is going through dissociation episodes but the rest of the staff are treating her like shes a spoiled misbehaving brat. i dont think i have the authority or the proper knowledge to help her

My brain has no idea what it's doing with chemicals and such so I'm pretty 'effed up. There's also been other experiences that have gone and royally messed me up. It's leaking into many different parts of my life and I fear I won't be able pass. I want to work but I don't. A very vicious cycle.

Zoofights website is offline :(

i don't understand. first thing that comes up when i google "zoofight" is "Top 5 Gorilla Fights Caught On Camera"