I need help.

Yeah...

At the risk of putting the unsaid into words and reopening old wounds in the process, I uh... I really fucking miss Sunspider. It hasn't been the same here without her, and I still occasionally cry about her, including, coincidentally, about an hour before I saw this post. I know things will never be the same here again, that at least some of what happened was her own fault, and she herself has said she's long moved on, but... I don't know. I just want to be able to talk to her and invite her into servers with my friends without it being a big thing, even if she never rejoins the main group.

Anyway.

I'm really sorry to hear that you haven't been doing well, Fogel. You and I never really interacted all that much, but you were always a kind of reassuring pillar of the community for me, one of those familiar faces that was always there, always at least a little active. I hope you can get well soon, and best of luck with wherever you go next.