SpoilerWithout being privy to your complaints about the moderation decisions or what the realized fears of contacting a moderator were, I'm left to guess and speculate. Were they they things you mention happening? (-Not feeling you're being taken seriously, -Long wait between responses, -Speaking with the other moderators without permission to share your private conversation)

Regardless if it's about Decision X or potential future cases, the impression I came away with was a desire to relitigate, or for a second moderator team to go over decisions/moderator actions again? Lodge a complaint about a specific moderator? I guess if you have permission from the people involved and people willing to read through all the conversations, but I don't know how that gets around a 'who watches the watchman' concern short of putting things out into the public square?

Hiring the services of a real-life detective/mediator is the solution that comes to mind for having a person experienced in interpersonal conflict resolution with no existing ties to or stakes in the community, which makes it a great narrative device that I have no frame of reference for how such things work/are initiated/handled in real life.

I'm trying to give this thought and not be flippant or callous (And almost certainly failing. I know a detective is unlikely as a 'real solution' but is it in the right ballpark? Am I completely off base with my current interpretation?), though when I have nothing helpful to say I am sorely tempted to say nothing, as I did when you made your first post. I'm tired. I don't think I'm a particularly level-headed person. The task of trying to untangle and interpret other people's interpersonal webs makes me want to curl up and cry. And I've been writing this for too long with nothing helpful or good to say so I'm just going to hit post

SpoilerJust for clarity: I have an actual webspace. That part is no problem. It's making decisions about functionality and layout and such that I feel in over my head on, as well as the actual work of moving things over.

On the matters pushing me to leave: At this point, the value of overturning specific decisions would be mainly symbolic, as it would unlikely change anything for the individual people involved. Being symbolic doesn't mean it's unimportant, but if that were the only hurdle, I would still feel able to function here.
My aims at this stage are to get certain facts I consider important out in the open, and to address what I see as severe failures of the moderation process. The issue that I am struggling the most with is that currently, there is no way to make complaints and have them acted on without involving the same people responsible for those failures.
Mirdini, in his last message to me, suggested I was unwilling to stay because I disagreed with a specific decision. This is wrong. I am unwilling to stay because I cannot feel comfortable in an environment governed by such a faulty process.

The primary issue up to now has been simply that I cannot do this on my own. But I have difficulty opening up in general, and the whole series of events has damaged my ability to trust people. This has made it very hard for me to reach out.
I have been talking to a few people about this, but they weren't around consistently, so that made it harder to do anything when I couldn't talk to someone. It would also be useful if it turned out there were some portion of the work somebody else could do, just because that would be less weight on me specifically, but I'm not sure I have any specific requests for what they could do.