The thread for flipping shits (and tables)

the not caring isn't really apathy, because I still know how to talk to people...... It just doesn't feel effortless like I think it used to. I do things like be a good listener because that's the thing a Decent Person does. It's a rational decision based in, idk "maintaining maximum harmony" rather than something I do without rationalizing it, something I do because fuck it, I want to.

If happiness/effusively positive moods are unconsciously achieved states like I suspect from personal experience (where it's when my brain is pleasantly distracted from all the usual cannibalistic missiles ricocheting around in there), then I think this whole rational approach broke my ability to achieve that state.

I'm probably not making sense rn, eh