RE: i am here in the place, wheat
10-31-2014, 12:50 AM
I read about your backstory, wheat. It wasn't shitty; you did a good job writing it.
Now I nostalgically look back in the past when my sadism was A-OK and had few reprecussions. I miss the times when the easiest way to surprise someone was with violence. (so random) Surprises are funny. Funny is Good. I miss them Good Old Days. But they won't come back. I have adapted. Not perfectly. I must admit that I am still this way inside. I still think these violent thoughts.
But maybe one day I will find that Acceptable Group to Assault and find pleasure in not only hurting people, but for the right reasons.
But it's tough to find.
Now I nostalgically look back in the past when my sadism was A-OK and had few reprecussions. I miss the times when the easiest way to surprise someone was with violence. (so random) Surprises are funny. Funny is Good. I miss them Good Old Days. But they won't come back. I have adapted. Not perfectly. I must admit that I am still this way inside. I still think these violent thoughts.
But maybe one day I will find that Acceptable Group to Assault and find pleasure in not only hurting people, but for the right reasons.
But it's tough to find.
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