The thread for flipping shits (and tables)

putting this in spoilers just because it's whiny and petty and considering some of the other shit that's been flipped by other people it's really kind of insignificant

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Spoilereven though i feel much better than i ever did in the last like, five years lately i've been feeling emotionally drained and shitty and kind of lonely-- mostly the last one. like, i have this persistent feeling that i don't really have any friends, even though i know that's probably not the case? but i don't really know anyone anymore, and i don't have any sort of social network at school past loose acquaintances

i guess part of what contributes is that all of the people i've considered best friends in the past seven years (i can think of six off the top of my head) i've gradually drifted away from and gone from talking to every day to barely ever? and it's not like we stop being friends-- most of them i still talk to-- but there's that sense of loss that i don't really know how to handle.

the worst part of this loneliness whatever is i don't know how i'd even go about fixing it. like i don't know how to deliberately make friends, and it isn't as though i have social anxiety because i can talk to people, it's not like i freeze up and panic if someone addresses me or asks me a question, but i don't know how to talk to someone on a level deeper than cursory trivial bullshit.