The thread for flipping shits (and tables)

So, i guess it's time to let you guys know why i've been a bit absent (a lot less as of now though).

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SpoilerThere are so many things i have to say, but i guess i'll just mention the important ones: First of all, my trip to the U.S. has been... postponed, it's not certain if i'll ever get to go but there is a small chance that i will go next year. It didn't sound so optimistic when i received the news though, in fact, i had the biggest breakdown ever, like a spoiled kid throwing a tantrum. But it was more like a sad man legitimately threatening to end his own life because finally, after so many years of emotional pain a wonderful escape seemed so easy to achieve and it all went into shit after a short period of blissful planning.
I won't go into details but simply put, i needed a considerable amount of money in a short period of time and my family, who previously said they were willing to support me, backed away even though they could've covered it. After that i had a long period of intense emotional pain, as i discovered or rather, realized, more shitty stuff about my family - on top of that, shortly before that happened, i decided to stop taking medication in order to save up for my trip and also because i couldn't take my mother's bullshit anymore every time i needed money. It was a miserable experience, but i'm glad it happened when i had the time to stay in bed all day, by this point by the way, i had quit my job because i couldn't muster the energy to stand up. After a while and thanks to the fact that i had some money saved and my therapist is a wonderful person and lowered the price for her services in half, i was able to sort through all my shit and get it together.

And i guess that was it, there's more detail to all of that but it can be summed up as "i realized my family psychologically abused me all my life and i felt really shitty about it but then i got better"

I still don't think i'll be around IRC or Skype that much since i still don't have a computer and when i get to use my mom's i want to play or draw.