Last Day

Originally posted on MSPA by Stickmeister.

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HOLY FUCK THIS UPDATE TOOK FOREVER.

But now Last Day is in...SHADING-O-VISION!

Yes, Shading-O-Vision! Everything is now shaded. And the backgrounds are also kind of more details I guess maybe. TODAY'S TECHNOLOGY MADE THIS HAPPEN. YOU MADE THIS HAPPEN. YOU! GOOD JOB

It didn't actually take forever because it was shaded, there are just a LOT of panels. A fucking ton. Seriously fuckd fdkjfjkkdgkjdk

How did he control the zombie in order to sacrifice it?
How did he defeat all the zombies with one targeted spell?
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Where is he keeping the mountain!?

Now I'm imagining a Pentavus-style Zombie Horde creature.

>BOSS: Cast Prey Upon.

The moment I reference MtG and then JOKES.

but yeah I like MtG, I got into it this summer. b/r 4 lyfe. All I've got is a fuckton of Innistrad cards because booster box, an Intro deck from Dark Ascension and M13 and oh that's it I guess. I also have a Tamiyo a friend handed to me and I'm trying to build a deck around her with whatever cards I have. HAHAHA M13 REWIND + TAMIYO = INFINITE COUNTEEEERRRRSSSSSS

So here's the update that took forever. it's kind of DRAMATIC which I don't like slipping into but I also like creating deep characters because you can't really have jokes with flat as fuck characters. THE ENDLESS CONFLICT

> Suddenly segue

"You dropped out?"

"...Yeah. I guess a few months after you, uh...left."

"Why?"



"You know why."



"Your mother? Jen, you could have taken out a loan and switched. You know that. Then you wouldn't even have to talk to her ever again."



"No! No, I can't. I just...can't. Okay? I wouldn't be able to pay it off. I can't. I can't!"

"You can."

"No, I can't! Please, just..."

"I know you can!"



"NO I FUCKING CAN'T! OKAY? I'm a failure, Ted. I'm a fucking failure!"





"Listen, I can't take this. These past two years have been the worst years of my life, Ted. Every time I get a new job I screw it up and move somewhere else. And every time I do that I put on a happy face and I tell
myself everything will be different.



"But it never fucking is, I can tell myself that but I know I'll just end up fucking things up. I already fucked up in college, now look at where I am! I'm such a fucking failure making anything past minimum, what the fuck tells you I can pay off a debt? What the fuck tells you things will be different? It will never be different, okay? Because I already fucked it all up. I fucked everything up and called you a coward and I...I can't take risks any more, Ted. You know, I try to make it better, but I can't. I can't...



"...I just...can't...I..."



"A failure? Jen..."

"No, I am, okay? Things will never be different. Don't...just, please, leave me alone for right now. I hate people seeing me when I'm like this. It's just...god..."







"...You know, I can just say that you're not a failure. And you would say that I'm just saying that. I know it's not enough to say it, even though it's true. You can tell yourself that, but you know you aren't. I'm not sure how to convince you that except by telling you that you're not. I think I can start by telling you that I feel the same way sometimes.





"...Look, these past two years haven't been the brightest for me either. I've been working here for 8 months, right? Every day I wake up, shower, get dressed, go to work, and endlessly code some bullshit for a company I don't even give two fucks about. I get home, do nothing with Benson all day and when I go to bed I think to myself 'I'm going to quit tomorrow.'"



"I never do that. And I was never happy. Maybe grateful that the day was over, I guess. But I would always go back to work the next day dreading it. I was stuck in a loop. It's a personal hell, doing the same thing every day and never finding happiness out of it. At the very least, I had the positive thought of quitting, and I held onto that until I finally did it.



"And today I quit. Or, I was going to quit, until you showed up from nowhere. And I decided that I was going to quit with you. Not out of any sort of selfishness, but because I don't want you to be subjected to the same personal hell I faced for the past 8 months. You're better than that. You deserve more. I don't think anyone should be subjected to doing something they don't like for the rest of their life just so they can get by. It's a form of torture, really. You're just driving yourself into madness, you know? I think you can do better for yourself, but first you have to have confidence in yourself and be someone.



"Really, I think you're looking at your past mistakes and seeing them as a bad thing. You know, instead of being glad that you've overcome those obstacles, you dwell in them. I think that's it. And when you were in college? You couldn't handle the work because you didn't like it. You didn't really enjoy what you were doing but you were aware that you could do better. You were caught in that same loop, actually. And you might have been these past two years. And I think what we can do, together, is quit. I think both of us can get out of that loop and do what we really want to do...whatever that is. But first we have to take that first step. But most importantly, you should know that you're not a failure. You're not worthless and you know it. And I know that.



"And, uh...that's it, I think. Jen?"





"...Okay."



"Okay!"



"Good! Now that's the girl I love."

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themes themes themes themes themes thEMES THEMES THEMES THEMES THEMES

problems and breakdowns only lasting ONE UPDATE in secretly sad people: the comic (THIS IS ANOTHER THEME ABOUT EVERYONE HAVING PROBLEMS IN SOME WAY OR ANOTHER BY THE WAY)

i'm going to drive myself crazy from writing here. I should become Tim Buckley and write stupid character with buff best friend and girlfriend who acts like his mom and A ROBOOOTTT?!?!?!? Then I wouldn't have to deal with THEMES and CHARACTER BACKGROUNDS (or backgrounds in general ohohoho)

i'm rambling