RE: The thread for flipping shits (and tables)
01-11-2012, 02:08 AM
I didn't get anything done today, at all
I mean I had three fairly easy priorities: At least make a start on my networking java project, get a doctor's appointment for some time next week and make a picture for another forum that doesn't even require a huge amount of work that isn't copying and pasting things from sprite sheets I already have.
Instead I spent so much time flipping out about how much I hate my Java course that I didn't even do anything except open the development kit, didn't bother trying to ring the GP's reception on time to realise that my phone was out of power and charge it before they closed for the day and just plain didn't do the other thing, instead electing to play one hour of video games and spend the rest of the day doing pretty much fuck all except refresh web pages
This isn't even a huge deal, I've got two weeks before I need to give in this project which should be enough time (and hell, worst comes to worst it's not even graded but as we use the same code for the actual real graded assessment I'd rather not fail it anyway), but it really annoys me because I have no idea how this can have been possible. Why would I do something like that?
I can't seem to wake up properly and spend all day half asleep, maybe that's part of it. But that's also part of why I'm trying to get a doctor's appointment.
I went to give blood and then we found out that they wouldn't take my blood because I was so light they were afraid I'd just faint immediately. I took a BMI test and apparently I am at the far left of the scale, as underweight as it is possible to be, which is somewhat worrying. I mean, I don't have any kind of eating disorder, I rarely eat breakfast but I have two square meals a day so presumably this shouldn't be happening. And it also said some of the symptoms of being underweight were tiredness and general apathy but I can't tell if I was feeling like this before I read that or not and if this is just some attempt to pass all my problems off onto being ill instead of accepting any responsibility, or just Hypochondria or something.
Hopefully I can blame everything on my health because that'll be a lot easier than exercising any effort to change myself.
I don't know if I'm complaining about my health or myself, maybe both. You can probably just ignore this, I'm a little confused about why I am writing it at all. My problems aren't very big compared to some other people's so frankly it's a little embarrassing that I am even letting them bother me.
I mean I had three fairly easy priorities: At least make a start on my networking java project, get a doctor's appointment for some time next week and make a picture for another forum that doesn't even require a huge amount of work that isn't copying and pasting things from sprite sheets I already have.
Instead I spent so much time flipping out about how much I hate my Java course that I didn't even do anything except open the development kit, didn't bother trying to ring the GP's reception on time to realise that my phone was out of power and charge it before they closed for the day and just plain didn't do the other thing, instead electing to play one hour of video games and spend the rest of the day doing pretty much fuck all except refresh web pages
This isn't even a huge deal, I've got two weeks before I need to give in this project which should be enough time (and hell, worst comes to worst it's not even graded but as we use the same code for the actual real graded assessment I'd rather not fail it anyway), but it really annoys me because I have no idea how this can have been possible. Why would I do something like that?
I can't seem to wake up properly and spend all day half asleep, maybe that's part of it. But that's also part of why I'm trying to get a doctor's appointment.
I went to give blood and then we found out that they wouldn't take my blood because I was so light they were afraid I'd just faint immediately. I took a BMI test and apparently I am at the far left of the scale, as underweight as it is possible to be, which is somewhat worrying. I mean, I don't have any kind of eating disorder, I rarely eat breakfast but I have two square meals a day so presumably this shouldn't be happening. And it also said some of the symptoms of being underweight were tiredness and general apathy but I can't tell if I was feeling like this before I read that or not and if this is just some attempt to pass all my problems off onto being ill instead of accepting any responsibility, or just Hypochondria or something.
Hopefully I can blame everything on my health because that'll be a lot easier than exercising any effort to change myself.
I don't know if I'm complaining about my health or myself, maybe both. You can probably just ignore this, I'm a little confused about why I am writing it at all. My problems aren't very big compared to some other people's so frankly it's a little embarrassing that I am even letting them bother me.