RE: Cent's Yuenyeung [ Too Much Tea, Not Enough Coffee ]
11-17-2020, 05:56 AM
Hey.
So, it's been a while. I guess it's a little awkward to just, send this to you, but i started thinking about this again a few days ago, and i just, don't want to be stopped by awkwardness from doing something I want to do. So.
A lot's happened since I last spoke to you. I did end up going to that festival with my parents' friend, his name is Azade. I hadn't spent too much time with him before, but he was very nice, he pointed out landmarks to me on the way there and told me about them. The festival was going for a week, I think, and we arrived around the middle. Azade helped me find a place to camp (I've gone camping a few times before, I don't remember if I ever told you that) with a few of his friends that could help show me around the area, they were cool. They'd all been there often. I ended up spending some time with these old bugs who were lovely, they had all been friends for many years. They'd brought a bunch of food they cooked and shared it with me, and I asked them about the Sequence Break. They told me a lot of stories, some of them even played musical instruments while singing. You told me about it and I've looked some stuff up but I don't think it really hit me until that moment just how important it was. I live pretty out of the way, I don't think I've ever been in a city, but I still see signs of humans around, sometimes literal signposts. And that'd become normal to me, but to think that there used to be so many humans around creating and using and maintaining and consuming everything thats just part of the background now... it's hard to imagine. And then they all just left. And now there's just us.
I did end up opening that coloured box I mentioned finding, there was a panel on it that I had to press down while pulling one of the other sides. Inside was this plastic figure, a little smaller than me, which spun on a pedestal while music played. The music was a bit scratchy, I think from how old it was. But there was something about it that was really nice and charming, just this little dancer in a box. I think it was a present to someone. I felt really curious about why it had been in that tree where I found it, but I know there's no way I'll ever be able to truly know, heh. So I just imagine what could've happened instead.
I also kind of met someone at the festival who I got on with really well, and I've seen them a few times since. We're not in a relationship, but it's nice to hang out with them. They have a hobby in engineering, which is something I've never really done thought about but it's very interesting. I've been talking to them a lot online as well, and
fff I don't know if any of this is interesting to you, sorry. I just felt like I should tell you. I'm guessing a lot's happened for you too. I hope you're doing well. I feel really bad I didn't write to you before now, I don't know if it makes sense to feel that way. I like talking to you and seeing what you write, idk I felt closer to you than other people I've met online. And I get the impression having other people interact with you, converse with you, helps you with motivation and stuff, you might've said as much I don't remember. I guess it's kind of weird to say but I, liked knowing that I was helping you, with that. Sorry if that's presumptuous. But the thing about online relationships is that it takes effort to keep them up, and I'm honestly a pretty lazy person sometimes. That's why it took me so long to write this, I've been intending to for month to be honest. I don't really know what the point of this email is, you don't have to keep replying like before. I guess I don't even know why you stopped, I'm just assuming you lost motivation. I really hope nothing bad happened to you, but I don't want to think about that much. I guess I just wanted to let you know that, I'm still here, I guess. I miss talking with you, Cent. And I'm open to hearing anything you have to say, if you want.
Also I know some of the stuff I've said in this email is kinda self-deprecating but don't like, guilt yourself for my sake or anything. I understand that sometimes there just isn't a particular reason to not reply for several months, that's what I've been feeling for a while as well.
So, it's been a while. I guess it's a little awkward to just, send this to you, but i started thinking about this again a few days ago, and i just, don't want to be stopped by awkwardness from doing something I want to do. So.
A lot's happened since I last spoke to you. I did end up going to that festival with my parents' friend, his name is Azade. I hadn't spent too much time with him before, but he was very nice, he pointed out landmarks to me on the way there and told me about them. The festival was going for a week, I think, and we arrived around the middle. Azade helped me find a place to camp (I've gone camping a few times before, I don't remember if I ever told you that) with a few of his friends that could help show me around the area, they were cool. They'd all been there often. I ended up spending some time with these old bugs who were lovely, they had all been friends for many years. They'd brought a bunch of food they cooked and shared it with me, and I asked them about the Sequence Break. They told me a lot of stories, some of them even played musical instruments while singing. You told me about it and I've looked some stuff up but I don't think it really hit me until that moment just how important it was. I live pretty out of the way, I don't think I've ever been in a city, but I still see signs of humans around, sometimes literal signposts. And that'd become normal to me, but to think that there used to be so many humans around creating and using and maintaining and consuming everything thats just part of the background now... it's hard to imagine. And then they all just left. And now there's just us.
I did end up opening that coloured box I mentioned finding, there was a panel on it that I had to press down while pulling one of the other sides. Inside was this plastic figure, a little smaller than me, which spun on a pedestal while music played. The music was a bit scratchy, I think from how old it was. But there was something about it that was really nice and charming, just this little dancer in a box. I think it was a present to someone. I felt really curious about why it had been in that tree where I found it, but I know there's no way I'll ever be able to truly know, heh. So I just imagine what could've happened instead.
I also kind of met someone at the festival who I got on with really well, and I've seen them a few times since. We're not in a relationship, but it's nice to hang out with them. They have a hobby in engineering, which is something I've never really done thought about but it's very interesting. I've been talking to them a lot online as well, and
fff I don't know if any of this is interesting to you, sorry. I just felt like I should tell you. I'm guessing a lot's happened for you too. I hope you're doing well. I feel really bad I didn't write to you before now, I don't know if it makes sense to feel that way. I like talking to you and seeing what you write, idk I felt closer to you than other people I've met online. And I get the impression having other people interact with you, converse with you, helps you with motivation and stuff, you might've said as much I don't remember. I guess it's kind of weird to say but I, liked knowing that I was helping you, with that. Sorry if that's presumptuous. But the thing about online relationships is that it takes effort to keep them up, and I'm honestly a pretty lazy person sometimes. That's why it took me so long to write this, I've been intending to for month to be honest. I don't really know what the point of this email is, you don't have to keep replying like before. I guess I don't even know why you stopped, I'm just assuming you lost motivation. I really hope nothing bad happened to you, but I don't want to think about that much. I guess I just wanted to let you know that, I'm still here, I guess. I miss talking with you, Cent. And I'm open to hearing anything you have to say, if you want.
Also I know some of the stuff I've said in this email is kinda self-deprecating but don't like, guilt yourself for my sake or anything. I understand that sometimes there just isn't a particular reason to not reply for several months, that's what I've been feeling for a while as well.