The 2am thread

i desperately want and need my life to be able to move on but it is completely and absolutely out of my control and im so scared and afraid all the time...

i hope i can at least acclimatize to where i am rn quickly so that i can try to be at least a little creative... but it is so hard, motivating myself is so hard and dealing with my many issues is also hard and building up enough to try to do things is very hard and i wish i could get there...

i think im in a slightly better place to try but i dont know, i am very unsure about everything...