The 2am thread

I've been in a shit mood all day. I went to bed feeling depressed and bad and woke up early to Ren telling me the washing machine popped a hose and flooded the entire garage, which has box upon box of our stuff in it... They made themselves late for work dragging everything out to the back yard to dry and then left it and went. After that Mum came around to help me sort through stuff and move some things off of the grass where they were only going to get more wet. I was in a foul mood and just wanted to be left alone so it was a huge pain in the ass. We managed it (not sure how Ren moved all those boxes and the spare mattress out there alone? we struggled with both of us).

My support worker also cancelled on me today so i spent the day alone and angry. I feel like i'm being ignored by at least one person too and managed to construct an entire narrative/conversation in my head without actually talking to them thats just. Made me furious now and realise how long this stuff has been bothering me.... I'm not sure if i have a legit reason to be upset or if its just the depression? Anyway i don't want to upset them but also i'm pretty unhappy and i don't know how to even begin to approach that conversation. The worst part is that we've talked about it before and apparently that's just sailed over their head ugh

Oh also theres the usual we're poor; the hot water cylinder is throwing a fit and venting a ton of hot water out somehow while also supplying us with virtually none. I've been taking cold showers and our power bill this month was 150% of what it usually is, putting us into overdraft and meaning we have no money for anything! Cool i love it!

I'm very stressed out and i need a hug