The thread for flipping shits (and tables)

hello, eagle time. i know it seems like i dont care about most of you (but i do) and i know you feel the same way about me but imma flip my shit here anyways.

its been one and a half years since i entered my current college. i feel like i have made no friends or relationships. sure, there are people i can talk to but we never talk beyond the surface. there are no other people who share my interests, they just party, most of the time. ive always wanted to transfer but im scared to because this college is the only one ive been able to get a full ride in, and i do have one really good friend here. but, only one. and we dont really share many interests anyways. and im still trying to discover myself and i dont really know yet. i want a meaningful relationship as well but there seems to be no guy thats right for me (im gay btw) and its getting frustrating. i know im an introvert but ive been getting less and less social lately and its gotten to the point where im downright mistrustful of others, always branding them names like "partying frat jock", etc. i hate this about myself, i want to be able to make friends again. i dont even know what normal people talk about anymore. i want to talk to other people but i dont know where to begin and i dont want to go to a party to do so. and my college is not very big-name so theres a lot of regrets about going here as opposed to, say, an ivy league school.

so uh yeah. i mean, i dont know what advice you can give but anything helps here.