RE: дупка - пламен
03-03-2017, 06:27 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-03-2017, 06:30 PM by Coolacanth.)
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I keep getting these little bouts of uncontrollable shivering, even though it's been sunny and well above freezing today and I've been well bundled up. I haven't asked Alsea about it yet. She's been too busy with the baby.
Every time I have the shivering I hear the radio again. I remember the first shock I had when I realized the voice wasn't coming from either of the people, that it was coming from the black box with the little perforations where the speaker part is. No one has a working radio any more. But the greater shock was the words coming out of it. I didn't understand them, and it wasn't like me not understanding when Alicia and Alejandro are talking. I try not to remember, but I keep seeing that black box in my head and replaying the moment where I stepped towards it to turn it off. Seeing the blank eyes of the barefoot people, having the realization they were dead. I've seen dead people before, but none of them affected me like that before. I think I'm getting better at pushing down the memory, anyway, because I've stopped remembering what happened after I saw their eyes. My mind just skips forward to where I was standing back outside the square concrete monolith, salty water dripping down my face, and holding the baby. It looked ill, but I knew I was supposed to take it away from the village.
I didn't tell all of this to Angel. They were angry at me for taking their gun, but I think they were more angry that I had taken such a risk going off alone. I heard them and Visnin talking about me when I was in bed last night. Angel doesn't feel like they know me any more. Visnin said he was worried about me, too, but I was still the same kid they raised. For my own part, I don't know if he's right. Something about the smooth way I glossed over the radio talking and the empty eyes staring at me - it's not something I could have done before we moved here. Am I losing myself somehow?
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I keep getting these little bouts of uncontrollable shivering, even though it's been sunny and well above freezing today and I've been well bundled up. I haven't asked Alsea about it yet. She's been too busy with the baby.
Every time I have the shivering I hear the radio again. I remember the first shock I had when I realized the voice wasn't coming from either of the people, that it was coming from the black box with the little perforations where the speaker part is. No one has a working radio any more. But the greater shock was the words coming out of it. I didn't understand them, and it wasn't like me not understanding when Alicia and Alejandro are talking. I try not to remember, but I keep seeing that black box in my head and replaying the moment where I stepped towards it to turn it off. Seeing the blank eyes of the barefoot people, having the realization they were dead. I've seen dead people before, but none of them affected me like that before. I think I'm getting better at pushing down the memory, anyway, because I've stopped remembering what happened after I saw their eyes. My mind just skips forward to where I was standing back outside the square concrete monolith, salty water dripping down my face, and holding the baby. It looked ill, but I knew I was supposed to take it away from the village.
I didn't tell all of this to Angel. They were angry at me for taking their gun, but I think they were more angry that I had taken such a risk going off alone. I heard them and Visnin talking about me when I was in bed last night. Angel doesn't feel like they know me any more. Visnin said he was worried about me, too, but I was still the same kid they raised. For my own part, I don't know if he's right. Something about the smooth way I glossed over the radio talking and the empty eyes staring at me - it's not something I could have done before we moved here. Am I losing myself somehow?
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