"Seriously brain, what the hell?" A Thread For Weird Dreams and Nightmares

i just had this dream that really fucked me up. id say its more of a nightmare but its not really, until the end. okay so this could get VERY weird but bear with me as i attempt to interpret it. sorry for tense swaps and poor formatting, im going stream of consciousness here.

so IRL recently since august, i have this new apartment. its swanky. i rented it out, and a girl friend (note the space, im gay, remember) moved in with me. the dream starts with me inspecting the apartment with her. but it was nothing like the one in real life. the interior was all different but still nice. i had this huge tv and game rig, set up on one of those school av carts in the middle of an empty room. we looked outside, and it was this courtyard that looked so sci fi. it was like... concrete sidewalks everywhere, many apartments and sidewalks above us and around us. we were on the ground level, and there were plants around us. id compare it to mass effect i guess. especially the presidium. anyways we figured out which sidewalks we legally own, then we went inside to play games.

then we were suddenly at another friends house nearby, for what i guess was a homewarming party. there were lots of friends and family. basically everyone i knew. then. this is the part where it gets creepy. suddenly the lights shut down, ALL of them. in every apartment. im confused, and i start to speak. someone shushes me. signs in ASL to me, saying "be VERY quiet" (we still had moonlight to sign by) "or they will hear" then someone silently points out that they can still hear something down the halls. like... game sounds? they panic, saying i had left my tv and games on! somehow i brought the remote with me and i could turn the tv off from where i was, by locating my apartments window. they all silently sigh in relief, and the lights turn back on. they said that students were studying for a test upstairs but somehow i didnt believe them.

next. at my house. someone young girl i only vaguely knew had a gift for her! but it was my duty to hide it so she could find it. everyone decided to try though. this next part will get a bit tough to describe, because it was so vivid i remember every detail. everyone would close their eyes. friends close to me would keep counting to only 10, then i would run off, then time was up. everyone around me wakes up and says they found me! but i keep complaining and saying that 10 seconds isnt nearly enough. this goes on for around 3 cycles, until i finally acrobatically swing myself up into the attic. not many people can do what i just did or think it was even possible, but i knew because its my house. but i feel some people coming! i hastily throw the presents (around 10 uno card packs) into a corner filled with stuff, and sat down casually on a couch (its a big attic, more like a playroom i suppose). people started looking around the room. i was misleading them by looking intently at certain parts of the room. they couldnt find the presents, even though i just threw them into the corner. but someone did find notes on my table somewhere. weird notes scrawled in a strange language. probably 100s of papers.

this part is from an outside perspective, but was somehow still me. like i became another character in another story. i was a boy, like age 16. everyone else was younger. everyone was pressuring me into deciphering those notes and completing my project. apparently it would have allowed inter-universal travel. it was long and hard work. my brain kind of fastforwarded through this part. but then i woke up in front of my deciphering desk, and there were "madness writings" everywhere. like, "it wont die it wont die it wont die" something like that. i dont remember exactly what it was. i bailed. partially due to laziness and due to being freaked out. i abandoned them in my apartment and stayed somewhere else. i chilled out there for like 6 months? an indeterminate amount of time really.

the next part is hazy so i can only show snippets. i wouldnt discover the full story until later. some kids came into my (current) apartment, through the vent i guess. they were saying "Gatr! (really, my real name) We found him!" then they started arguing that this wasnt the right time according to the prophecy. haze. i was in a room with several dogs in it. they were dirty and big dogs but still cute. they walked up to me and another boy, sitting obediently and also licking my hands. he picked up some pills from the ground. i saw that pills were EVERYWHERE. it was a messy room. the boy gave them some pills, and the dogs left. it was like routine to them. so this was what they had gotten up to in the six months i was away.

they has printouts and analysis of every post i had ever made online. reading too far into some simple words. trying to find a hidden code. apparently they became a cult while i was gone, obsessed with my deciphering work. but they werent, like, insane. they were just obsessed. i kept finding some crazy but plausible obscure connections. the kids kept talking to me about something. i had no idea what they were saying, but they thought i knew because, well, they had worshipped me. something about a rift in space, and something filling up that rift that makes people go crazy. HMM.

i dont remember this next part but it was basically more them showing me wacky sci-fi stuff, that i was supposed to understand but i didnt. it was brightly colored. think gummi ships from kingdom hearts. then we got to this one part they just couldnt figure out. its hard to describe. it was like a airlock/escape pod port. ships would take off from here, presumably in the other dimension. there were 4 switches, each under a number display, all had 160. they were atop a glass screen displaying the back of another ship. they couldnt understand how to take off. on a whim, i held down all the switches at the same time, so the numbers counted down from 160 to 0 rapidly. the ship took off! there were people in it. then they came back almost immediately, frantically requesting re-entry. i held the switches back down, counting up to 160. but one switch was much slower than the others. now, keep in mind, there was a black background surrounding the ship that took off. kinda like space. anyways the ship was coming in, but there was, on the display, a guy. i think one behind me as well? he was saying that i needed to hurry up! IT was coming! what? i say. but i never knew. just that something pure was about to be corrupted. the guy on my display was looking panicked, the black was consuming the ship. and it was around me. i could feel several kids around me succumbing to the black but i couldnt look behind me. i was begging for that one switch (top left) to hurry up to 160! the guy on my display was still there, and just as i was about to finish, he yelled "NOOOOO-" and i could see him corrupt. his head grew thin, he spouted multiple limbs upwards, and they merged and diverged again, until he resembled a tree. all within a half second. suddenly i felt my body warp, and i screamed. all went black.

i woke up in a cold sweat.

thank you for reading, if you made it this far. it is still much too early where i am but i dont know how i will get back to sleep.