RE: The thread for flipping shits (and tables)
08-22-2012, 12:11 PM
So I'm becoming increasingly convinced that my stepmother has legitimate, undiagnosed Issues. Namely, I'm pretty sure she has either an anxiety disorder or an anxiety-related personality disorder (such as OCPD). And yeah, I know the whole "don't diagnose those close to you" thing, but I'm legitimately worried.
She cannot deal with stress at all. She tries to talk things out with herself when she gets upset, but she clearly gets upset an unhealthy amount of the time (most of it from her work) so just about every night she'll be half-mumbling half-shouting about something or other. Normally it's just a mild irritation, but yesterday she was doing it at the computer, to the point where it was distracting her from her nominally stress-relieving game of Bejeweled.
Seeing that this clearly wasn't helping, I suggested she go to bed because this obviously wasn't helping her get any less stressed. She promptly lashed out at me to the point where I felt on the verge of tears. I ended up going into the bedroom to talk to my dad, which, for the record, is not a normal thing. If anything, I'm normally talking to her about what I perceive as his dumb bullshit. Hell, at least then it's an actual disagreement.
I think the upcoming move has made things even worse than usual but honestly this just seems like a continuation of a pattern. At the same time that it concerns me, it makes me incredibly glad to be leaving, because I really don't want to deal with this anymore. And now I'm worried that makes me a bad person even though, I mean, practically four years straight and now it culminates in getting screeched at when I'm legitimately trying to help. And even when I explain that.
Sometimes I feel like my parents act less like adults than I do. That's probably at least 80% short-sightedness/egotism/inability to get inside their heads/what-have-you but they've done some really stupid and immature and insensitive things and it's just
ugh.
Three more fucking days.
She cannot deal with stress at all. She tries to talk things out with herself when she gets upset, but she clearly gets upset an unhealthy amount of the time (most of it from her work) so just about every night she'll be half-mumbling half-shouting about something or other. Normally it's just a mild irritation, but yesterday she was doing it at the computer, to the point where it was distracting her from her nominally stress-relieving game of Bejeweled.
Seeing that this clearly wasn't helping, I suggested she go to bed because this obviously wasn't helping her get any less stressed. She promptly lashed out at me to the point where I felt on the verge of tears. I ended up going into the bedroom to talk to my dad, which, for the record, is not a normal thing. If anything, I'm normally talking to her about what I perceive as his dumb bullshit. Hell, at least then it's an actual disagreement.
I think the upcoming move has made things even worse than usual but honestly this just seems like a continuation of a pattern. At the same time that it concerns me, it makes me incredibly glad to be leaving, because I really don't want to deal with this anymore. And now I'm worried that makes me a bad person even though, I mean, practically four years straight and now it culminates in getting screeched at when I'm legitimately trying to help. And even when I explain that.
Sometimes I feel like my parents act less like adults than I do. That's probably at least 80% short-sightedness/egotism/inability to get inside their heads/what-have-you but they've done some really stupid and immature and insensitive things and it's just
ugh.
Three more fucking days.