The thread for flipping shits (and tables)

Okay so lately i've been having a pretty bad depression time

The city's mental health services are supposed to be checking up on me. They're not supposed to let me out of the system until they're confident i'm doing okay? Anyway my case worker changed, recently. She called me a couple of times but i missed the calls, and because its a public health service whatever number the number is blocked so i can't actually call back. After a week she called my partner, who is one of two alternative points of contact i gave them. Ren took the call, got a number to call from the case worker then 3 WEEKS LATER STILL HASN'T GIVEN ME THAT NUMBER

anyway me calling them hinges on me being awake and in a stable enough mental state to call during normal business hours which hasn't really happened. After getting in contact with Ren they stopped even trying to call.

My psych suggested i stop taking my meds and slowly taper them down, which has coincided with me not contacting them. Apparently no one is worried about this.
I just got a letter in the mail essentially saying 'oh since i haven't heard from you i guess you don't need us. Theres an appointment scheduled with your psych for the 10th but i'm just going to cancel that because i guess. You don't need us.

I want to be dead. They don't know if i've tried to kill myself or not. They don;t care

I'm doing so badly and no one who is supposed to help or care is and i want to die