RE: "Seriously brain, what the hell?" A Thread For Weird Dreams and Nightmares
05-20-2016, 07:59 PM
So i had a sort of nightmare with a happy ending.
So it was just, like, i'm at my house, getting up in the morning, but i'm kinda upset because there's like, tons of relatives camped outside in the backyard and they've been having parties, and all the lego toys are moving on their own, and santa is there and it'ss justt a fucking chaotic mess and its pissing me off but what's more that as i figure out that this is not real, i'm just seeing all this stuff!! my backyard is empty. there aren't even legos in my room!!
i'll look into a room and see a bunch of bullshit and i'll be like "i hate these fucking hallucinations", and i'll have to turn around and look into the same room from another doorway so that i can see what the room actually looks like
i'm getting really worried that i'm gonna be seeing these hallucinations forever and it'll be a huge hassle sometimes trying to figure out what's real and what's not. I'm telling my friend about this and i'm saying that "some of the hallucinations are pretty obvious that they're fake, but i see them anyway, but other things i don't know if they're real or not. you might not be real! All of this really scares me! There are so many ways that this is scaring me."
the friend turns out not to be real, so i try telling it again to like, everyone i meet. I'm starting to panick like, we don't have a fountain in our house. i look taller than i really am sometimes! There's this asshole imaginary poltergeist, that i'm kicking, what does it look like to you guys who can see what things really look like? I'm just kicking a pile of clothes apparently but to me there's some jerk wearing those clothes... but at least i'm just kicking at nothing
it's overwhelming but then i'm like! i need to calm down! like, i can handle this, this isn't worth going to a mental hospital again over, i can still live like this. I'll get used to this nonsense and it'll get better for me!
Then real friend, who is pretty smart, is like "i invented this device because i actually diagnosed your problem from how you've been acting and what you've described to me, so, your eyes have a physical issue that is occasionally making you not be able to see properly, and then your brain is struggling to figure out what you should be seeing, so you're seeing all the hallucinations instead! So, to fix it my invention is just flash a real bright light in your eyes every now and then!
And it works! temporarily! it's like "for now we can just do some bright camera flashes at you, but a more permanent solution is to just get you special new glasses," and such. the problem becomes manageable! I even drive someone to their house and halfway into the drive the camera flash is wearing off but i'm like "okay, like, i know your house must be one of these two big purple houses, *i point at each* which one is itt, okay, it's that one thanks!" and it's all working out!
so uh, that was my dream.
i woke up and found i had an issue with seeing hallucinations but then i learned how to manage and live with it, and also found external ways to mitigate it further!
So it was just, like, i'm at my house, getting up in the morning, but i'm kinda upset because there's like, tons of relatives camped outside in the backyard and they've been having parties, and all the lego toys are moving on their own, and santa is there and it'ss justt a fucking chaotic mess and its pissing me off but what's more that as i figure out that this is not real, i'm just seeing all this stuff!! my backyard is empty. there aren't even legos in my room!!
i'll look into a room and see a bunch of bullshit and i'll be like "i hate these fucking hallucinations", and i'll have to turn around and look into the same room from another doorway so that i can see what the room actually looks like
i'm getting really worried that i'm gonna be seeing these hallucinations forever and it'll be a huge hassle sometimes trying to figure out what's real and what's not. I'm telling my friend about this and i'm saying that "some of the hallucinations are pretty obvious that they're fake, but i see them anyway, but other things i don't know if they're real or not. you might not be real! All of this really scares me! There are so many ways that this is scaring me."
the friend turns out not to be real, so i try telling it again to like, everyone i meet. I'm starting to panick like, we don't have a fountain in our house. i look taller than i really am sometimes! There's this asshole imaginary poltergeist, that i'm kicking, what does it look like to you guys who can see what things really look like? I'm just kicking a pile of clothes apparently but to me there's some jerk wearing those clothes... but at least i'm just kicking at nothing
it's overwhelming but then i'm like! i need to calm down! like, i can handle this, this isn't worth going to a mental hospital again over, i can still live like this. I'll get used to this nonsense and it'll get better for me!
Then real friend, who is pretty smart, is like "i invented this device because i actually diagnosed your problem from how you've been acting and what you've described to me, so, your eyes have a physical issue that is occasionally making you not be able to see properly, and then your brain is struggling to figure out what you should be seeing, so you're seeing all the hallucinations instead! So, to fix it my invention is just flash a real bright light in your eyes every now and then!
And it works! temporarily! it's like "for now we can just do some bright camera flashes at you, but a more permanent solution is to just get you special new glasses," and such. the problem becomes manageable! I even drive someone to their house and halfway into the drive the camera flash is wearing off but i'm like "okay, like, i know your house must be one of these two big purple houses, *i point at each* which one is itt, okay, it's that one thanks!" and it's all working out!
so uh, that was my dream.
i woke up and found i had an issue with seeing hallucinations but then i learned how to manage and live with it, and also found external ways to mitigate it further!