Lucidstuck I

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Trigger warning: implied sexual assault

Emily: Say something to confirm your realness. Something only someone outside the construct would know

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Emily: Err... Uhh..
Emily: Well, If you don't think I'm real, I remember you.
Daydream: Huh?
Emily: Why you ended up here. Why we ended up here.
Emily: You're perpetually in a state of pain. But you've gotten very good at masking it.
Daydream: You don't know shit.
Emily: Oh?
Emily: I know that you're lovesick.
Daydream: .......
Emily: It's okay, I was too, at a time.

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Daydream: ....Here. Let's have a little chat.
Daydream: You seem to know enough to have a meaningful conversation. Take a seat.
Emily: W-where?
Daydream: Oh.

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Daydream: Take a seat beside the Aliens.
Emily: Okay...

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Emily: What would you like to talk about?
Daydream: ......
Daydream: I have a confession. It's... dark.
Daydream: It's sad.
Daydream: It's... Just indescribable.
Emily: You can say it, speak your mind.
Daydream:... I'm in love with Derrick.
Emily: ...!
Emily: But he's your brother!
Daydream: I know... It's sick.
Daydream: It's disgusting. Unforgivable.
Daydream: I have had such a difficult time suppressing these feelings.
Emily: Well, you need some way to cope with it.
Emily: You can't keep things like this bottled up.
Emily: It's good you're comfortable telling someone this.
Daydream: I'm not done.
Emily: ....?
Daydream: The sick part isn't that I'm in love with Derrick.
Daydream: The sick part is... I did something bad to him.
Emily: What?
Daydream: .....
Emily: What did you do?
Daydream: I... I...
Daydream: I took his virginity.
Emily: W...Wha...?
Emily: WHAT?
Daydream: ....... It's so fucked up.... I know.
Emily: When?? How??
Daydream: It was a long time ago for me.
Daydream: But just now for Alice.
Emily: Alice..? What?
Daydream: Oh, I'm Daydream. Alice is the girl you just met.
Daydream: Ugh... I'm so ashamed of myself.
Emily: .... Keep talking.
Daydream: Well at the time, I knew how Derrick felt about Lucia.
Daydream: He would never be with me.
Daydream: I loved him more than living.
Daydream: I was possessive. I was controlling.
Daydream: I was selfish.
Daydream: I was the worst kind of person.
Daydream: I really hate Alice. But she's necessary to save my brother.
Daydream: On our first "date". We had a great time. We went to all sorts of clothing stores, food stores, movies, parks, you name it.
Daydream: It got pretty late, so I managed to score some alcohol from a place. Derrick didn't want any, but I talked him into it.
Daydream: We drank a whole bottle between the two of us.
Daydream: But I use "we" very sparingly.
Daydream: I pretended to drink, while Derrick drank pretty much all of it.
Emily: ......
Daydream: When we got home... He could barely stand. I took him to my room.
Emily: ...........
Daydream: I kept the lights off, and asked him if... He'd like me to take care of him.
Daydream: And he said yes.
Daydream: So I....
Daydream: Well. You get the picture...
Emily: How could you do something like that??
Daydream: I said it was fucked, didn't I?!
Daydream: I wanted him so badly, I would die if anyone got his first.
Daydream: I planned that night hundreds of times in my head.
Daydream: He was my first as well.
Emily: This is...
Daydream: I felt I HAD to!
Emily: You raped him?!
Emily: That's a crime! You're a criminal!
Daydream: ...!!!
Daydream: FUCK, I KNOW.
Daydream: I didn't expect you to understand.
Emily: Well, did you completely destroy him??
Daydream: No, he was shit-faced. He did not remember anything.
Daydream: After I finished, I cleaned him up and carried him to his bedroom.
Daydream: He'll never know.
Daydream: Because you won't tell him, and neither will I.
Emily: What if I did?
Daydream: He'd never believe you. Try not to burn any bridges here.
Daydream: I trust you very little right now. Don't make it non existent.
Emily: .... So, you raped him, and he doesn't remember. And I was brought here to make you feel better?
Daydream: I dunno why you're here. But I do feel better.
Emily: .... Anything else you want to talk about it?
Daydream: ..... Yes.
Daydream: I've had you killed every cycle until now.
Emily: It was you??
Daydream: ....You remember?
Emily: Yes I remember! Bob has jogged my memory!
Daydream: ... Damn Aliens.
Daydream: Well, Sorry for killing you thousands of times.
Daydream: I promised the Aliens I wouldn't kill anyone. And Bob = Aliens.
Emily: Okay...
Daydream: I've been... Really conceited. I felt I didn't need any help. So you being here is clear how fucked this place has gotten.
Daydream: I'm so alone...
Daydream: You're probably judging me with your Christian values.
Daydream: I bet you think you're hot shit. Nothing can sully precious cinnamon roll Emily. Too pure for this world.
Daydream: Well go ahead. Judge me.
Emily: I'm not judging you. It's pretty... bad. But I'm not going to judge you. I'm not the standard for humanity. I also have my sins.
Daydream: Oh yeah? Well it gets me off.
Emily: What??
Daydream: What Alice did. It happens every cycle.
Daydream: And I watch.
Daydream: Are you disgusted yet?
Emily: W...Wha--
Daydream: Sometimes I give Alice "some time to sleep" and I take over.
Emily: WHAT THE...?!
Daydream: Disgusting isn't it? It makes me sick.
Daydream: But I love it.
Daydream: I hate myself and Alice for what we did to Derrick.
Daydream: But, it's been a while since I've done that. At least a few thousand cycles.
Daydream: But in the first while....
Daydream: I did him like a dog.
Emily: Okay... Stop. This is gross...
Daydream: You're disgusted by me now, aren't you?
Emily: JUST.. STOP IT.
Emily: OKAY, IT IS DISGUSTING.
Emily: I THOUGHT YOU LOVED HIM.
Daydream: I told you it was fucked up.
Daydream: Besides getting Lucia's father killed and getting her eye fucked up, that is my biggest sin.
Daydream: And I feel... Relieved.
Daydream: I don't think anyone would respect me if I told them.
Daydream: Anyone but you.
Daydream: You respect me, don't you?
Emily: No. You don't have my respect.
Emily: But you're a person. Same as me.
Emily: You've done wrong, same as me.
Emily: And you have wronged me, but...
Emily: I don't hate you.
Daydream: Wow. Aren't you something.
Daydream: How long will you keep that attitude up?
Emily: It's how I am.
Emily: But you need serious help. Serious.
Emily: You may be criminally insane.
Daydream: ...
Daydream: Insane?
Daydream: Hehehe... Ha.
Daydream: I'm not insane.
Emily: .......
Emily: If you know what you're doing...
Emily: Then that makes you a psychopath.
Daydream: Huh.
Daydream: Perhaps.
Daydream: I bet the aliens are judging me.
Daydream: Like they're so perfect. Ha.
Daydream: I don't give a shit.
Daydream: I know I've done wrong.
Daydream: Do I regret it?
Daydream: ......
Daydream: The really fucked up part is, I don't.
Daydream: If given the chance, I would do it under better circumstances.
Daydream: I love Derrick so much and I want him so bad... I'd never allow anyone to have his first.
Daydream: If he was concious he'd never give it to me.
Daydream: I don't want him to see me badly if I forced it from him consciously...
Daydream: So unconsciously was the only way. The safest, selfish way.
Emily: The only way??
Daydream: Yes.
Daydream: Thanks for listening I guess.
Daydream: That's something you're good at it seems.