The 2am thread

my bed broke and i was a shit baby about it because im a fucking disgusting wreck who cant deal with the fact that everything exists only to rot around them

i keep telling myself theres nothing i could have done and i removed the frame so im just on the mattress and its fine other than the fact that im not used to looking at my tv from here and theres other shit that was under my bed that i need to deal with but im just so utterly crushed and wrecked by this because its my bed i literally live on it but now that i have to throw it away tmoz i hate every part of it i hate how it was fucking put together i hate how i got a new mattress that was too big for it i hate that tomorrow im going to have to throw every piece of it away and be reminded of my growing frailty and weakness and overall shittyness all because everything in my life makes me want to just rotate between ffxiv/blizzard games/whatever third thing is in my life because otherwise i need to deal with the fact that im a digusting and hopless disasterr

my ingers hurt because of the shit i had to do with this fucking bed and im so tired and im so weak and doing anything about trying to make my life better doesnt work or pan out because if i try to do a small nice thing then a big bad thing will happen and i should just give up and eat junk food until i die lol