The 2am thread

daylight savings next week so i think now would be 2 oh nine am who cares though i think its close enough and im tired and moany and bad so here we go ok i love ffxiv im scared of it im scared of getting to the end and what happens then and i dont know because ive never played an mmo and i like what ive had to do and i have fun with it so i guess the answer is nothing chances excet i have to wait longer to do story quests instead of putting off story quests but its still a fear because i fear and overthink everything i love my new computer i call it an edgy piece of garbage because it looks like shadow the hedgehog and video gamers suck and its a gaming computer the graphics card has a my rig tab i hate gamers gamers literally hate children en masse someone was like in what context and the answer is every fucking context skyrim and fallout mods have kill children mods made super fast and are super popular people hate children being in their games and being reminded of their existence except in edge cases or worse if its an anime moe bait stuff people legit complain about not being able to kill children in some video games and its like why is this an issue that there is more than one stance on how fucked up and broken is gaming as a culture that its even down to just hating kids and wanting to murder kids on screen in this virtual entertainment device software shit im so tired of everything and i want to just not die and have a good time i guess i need to listen to all these podcasts now that i can do that with my laptop but its effort and i hate effort and i hate choices and i am made out of hesitation i hesitate and hesitate and hesitate and i will never be complete i will never ever be as good as i say or think i keep thinking maybe i can do nanowrambo and try to either redo rm or start lagomorpher or something but whats the point they will never be realized because im not good enough and because doing anything thats not playing games with jac, waiting for jac to get out of work, or playiing xiv until i get tired so i can wait for jac to get out of work so we can play games together is the entire loop of my life and the nly loop i can handle and if i tried to do anything with that outside of edge sccenarios i think id die but i probably wouldnt id just lay doing nothing i cant force myself into anything i can hardly make mysel do things i want to do im so gross im so horny im so tired im so alone im so angry and pissy and spiteful i never know what i want or why or what the point of anything i think or say is its almost three thirty but jac doesnt wake up for another hour and a half instead of just the half hour the only way i can tell the diffrences of time is based on jacs timezone i thought that time was going to go a different way but it wasnt and i only realized this when i realized that if the clock moved the way it did then instead of noon being five o clock when jac getsout of work it would be three o clock there so im wrong or i was wrong and im so good at that and i will never recover from my wounds