Good News Everyone!!! (The joysplosion thread)

I have a huge crush on someone -w-

Just thinking about it feels silly, i feel like a little prepubescent kid again!

I know it's pretty dumb and cliché but seriously, i hadn't had an actual, real crush that wasn't just physical/platonic attraction since i was like 15, that's like almost 10 years ago! Enough time to forget how a certain emotion feels, i'm smiling right now because i can't believe this bullshit actually happens to people and isn't just the stupid fabricated nonsense you see in movies that overly emotional and clingy people claimed was the best shit ever.
I think i'm actually more excited about the fact that i'm experiencing this emotion as an adult, when i can appreciate it, rather than the actual act of being in love or whatever, it's pretty fucking stupid! But i can't stop giggling every time i'm reminded about it, which is really often.

Plus, i'm very very lucky because circumstances allow me to spend a lot of time with her and will continue to do so for a short while, i'm having a whole lot of fun! Even though she's in a relationship i really don't care much about it; just being friends and hang out a lot is so good already, and it's like, i'm actually happy about the drama that comes with the relationship thing, i get kinda sad when i think about it and then i crack up internally because it's so dumb, sounds extremely stupid but that's just because it is. My only worry is that maybe the novelty will fade and shit will get too real and i'll feel depressed but whatever, it'll be worth it.

There's a lot more details to tell but i'm very glad i can spew this malarkey here because holy shit i'd never do it anywhere else.