art insecurity clubhouse

i dont really have a reply to that. most of it makes sense. but it's really hard to tell if i'm not the kind of person to make art for a big audience and stuff right now, considering i'm having a hard time just making art for myself. its something i'll have to think about more later, probably.

at the moment i just want to shout because ghdghdhfghfhfg artist who makes me deeply uncomfortable getting recognition bbbbhbhbhbhb there's more detail to this that makes it sound less jealous and more understandable but i don't wanna get into it

edit: i'll be a little more clear about one little thing
when this artist shows up in my tumblr/twitter feeds, it's because someone i follow has reblogged something this artist made. i pretty much only follow friends who i regularly talk to, and artists who i DO like.
recently i've gotten to the point where seeing someone i like and care about, share art by this one artist, makes me uncomfortable to the point of my heart suddenly racing and my stomach feeling sick and my hands shaking slightly, making me typo a lot

i don't 100% block that artists content tho. i need to know when my friends share their stuff. so i know which of my friends i need to talk to about them. because they're a bad person and i don't want to ignore them if any of my friends are looking up to them in any capacity

someone's gotta do it