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RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

i was feeling sort of ok and productive and now i just feel

scared

vaguely dysphoric

feeling my entire existence stolen from me by shitty fulltime work

and on top of all of that, theres a deep visceral feeling that anything i make will go beyond being bad into outright disastrous, like harmful to my health, a waste of time i dont have enough of, even though i need that fulfillment

i cant do anything because of these feelings, i just want to stop being a trainwreck, i just want to chill a bit and appreciate life

but i cant even enjoy doing nothing because i have so little time

and these feelings are shutting me down so hard

im just. fucking doomed huh

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RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

plus. cassie was splitting her hrt meds with me til like, two weeks ago, cause she ran out, and all the good trans feelings i had? yeah those wore off


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

i dont have health insurance or energy im broke and i cant do anything even though i lost my family over this and i jsut

wish it were better than this


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

why is there no way out. why cant i exist

rhetorical question our entire society is hell


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

it sucks so much though

like without my own existence what even am i

a human being reduced to a miserable automation so more power can go to the powerful, something all of society agrees to, something people agree to enforce

my entire life gone, replaced by something so much more meaningless, hollow productivity, the creation of nothing. made into a goddamned handcrank for people with functionally infinite wealth, infinite power, to give themselves more

what the fuck, humanity


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

let me LIVE


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

i'll feel better. i'll get out of this. im just not doing well at the moment


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

fucking sadists rule the world


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

i hope theres a hell for them


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

one day im going to live with a bunch of my friends and make things i care about for money, and things will be better. i just have to survive til then


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

my heart wont stop beating out of my chest


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

im so anxious


RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017

i dont have a family


RE: Loather Status - ICan'tGiveCredit - 07-25-2017

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