Loather Status - Printable Version +- Eagle Time (https://eagle-time.org) +-- Forum: Archive (https://eagle-time.org/forumdisplay.php?fid=25) +--- Forum: BAWK BAWK (https://eagle-time.org/forumdisplay.php?fid=34) +---- Forum: Hawkspace (https://eagle-time.org/forumdisplay.php?fid=35) +---- Thread: Loather Status (/showthread.php?tid=1189) |
RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 i was feeling sort of ok and productive and now i just feel scared vaguely dysphoric feeling my entire existence stolen from me by shitty fulltime work and on top of all of that, theres a deep visceral feeling that anything i make will go beyond being bad into outright disastrous, like harmful to my health, a waste of time i dont have enough of, even though i need that fulfillment i cant do anything because of these feelings, i just want to stop being a trainwreck, i just want to chill a bit and appreciate life but i cant even enjoy doing nothing because i have so little time and these feelings are shutting me down so hard im just. fucking doomed huh :\ RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 plus. cassie was splitting her hrt meds with me til like, two weeks ago, cause she ran out, and all the good trans feelings i had? yeah those wore off RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 i dont have health insurance or energy im broke and i cant do anything even though i lost my family over this and i jsut wish it were better than this RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 why is there no way out. why cant i exist rhetorical question our entire society is hell RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 it sucks so much though like without my own existence what even am i a human being reduced to a miserable automation so more power can go to the powerful, something all of society agrees to, something people agree to enforce my entire life gone, replaced by something so much more meaningless, hollow productivity, the creation of nothing. made into a goddamned handcrank for people with functionally infinite wealth, infinite power, to give themselves more what the fuck, humanity RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 let me LIVE RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 i'll feel better. i'll get out of this. im just not doing well at the moment RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 fucking sadists rule the world RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 i hope theres a hell for them RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 one day im going to live with a bunch of my friends and make things i care about for money, and things will be better. i just have to survive til then RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 my heart wont stop beating out of my chest RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 im so anxious RE: Loather Status - Loather - 07-24-2017 i dont have a family RE: Loather Status - ICan'tGiveCredit - 07-25-2017 LOVE ALERT we love you |